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These Days
04:53
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It is the weight on your chest
It's the pull of this thread
Living every day just to say at least I'm not dead
It's the perpetual nonsense
The unrequited dread
And I am too lost
And I am Jack's raging bile duct
And I am all out of random luck
And so
Sorry
For all
The worry i’ve caused
These days
These days
Are harder than they seem
Are harder than they...
I'll replay every mistake I've made at 5am listening to the pauses between my thoughts.
Leaving me with rot. So set these nightmares free.
And I am too lost
And I am Jack's raging bile duct
And I am all out of random luck
And so
Sorry
For all
The worry i’ve caused
These days
These days
Are harder than they seem
Are harder than they...
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Gloom
03:59
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It's in the cracks the gloom gets in
In the quiet moments in the absence of light
Littered betwixt shopping list and financial breakdown.
Poetry pours out and gets set free.
The unclogged drain of domestic bliss
My Perforated soul I am heart sick
Just give me a break
Just give me a break
Just give me a break
Just give me a break
You see it's all of these arseholes who keep telling me how to feel and how-to be.
Pinkered puckered purple vein throbs
Loose limbed life limps on
I am
Weightless gormless without form
Endless brainless foam and hell hath no fury like
A stifled yawn
And the endless complications never once left my brain. Click scroll sob Every day the mother fucking same
Just give me a break
Just give me a break
Just give me a break
Just give me a break
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Food For Thought
05:03
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've named all my gods so they can't control me anymore
I've met all my demons so they don't frighten me anymore
But I still you quiver under a cold sunlight - without your winter coat
You know my legs wobble you know and my bones are skin tight - it takes but a moment to snub out the light
Oh Forgive me
And give me
Food four fought
Set me free I don't wanna be taught
I am too old for this shit
Am I more than a one hit wunderkind
I put up a wall when I should tear it down
But all these feelings, that doesn't stop them hanging around
Am I less of a man if I learn something new
If I break this blood that separate me and you
Maybe another day will evaporate - Like nothing came before or after
Like an idiot sevant but not good at anything - If you have to make notes it generally speaking not worth remembering
How many Amazon delivery guys will derail my train of thought today
Oh Forgive me
And give me
Food four fought
Set me free I don't wanna be taught
I am too old for this shit
Am I more than a one hit wunderkind
Another cup of coffee and Another grey day
Two hidden cats under a mountain of duvet
When will domestic bliss Stop terrifying me this way
I should stop being so churlish and make some hay
But these caffeine sweat heart palpitations never seem to go away
Perhaps this is what they mean by the term "I'm okay"
“I'm okay"
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Asleep at the Wheel
04:13
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I saw two singing, shining, pearls
in mirrored glass Moonlight set on full beam
You cradled me in the sky and rocked me to sleep
Dead eyed like a flight attendant, bored enough to weep
It was sugar sweet, peanut butter stuck to roof of mouth kinda love
A pulmonary embolism feat of pain
When you ripped the bandage off my bleeding heart I felt sane
A subtle syncopated switch from the start, rinse lather repeat it’s all the same
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Lumen
01:59
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So at Last
03:01
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All that is solid will melt into air
All that is holy will be profaned
So at last
I am compelled
To face my fellow man
So drown these heavenly ecstasies
In such chivalrous enthusiasm
Or such philistine sentimentalism
Has been plunged
Into icy waters
And so at last
I am compelled
To face my fellow man
And so at last
I am compelled
To face my fellow man
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Algorithm
05:38
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I can’t dance
To the beat
Of your algorithm
Solitary
Pig sweet
You sweat meat
So tickle me pink
Sometimes I want to break
Something beautiful
Crush your perfect skin into mine
And wear you as a suit
And parade round the house
Till your prudish ideas come loose
At the seams
And so it seems
My own love songs
Have become
Too
Obscene
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X2
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I Swam
04:19
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I swam in the warm embrace of you
I poured my heart into every inch of you
What am I to do?
The softest embrace, a lifetime without you.
Whispered on every eyelash I'm in love with you
I'm afraid of losing even an inch of you
What am I to do?
The softest embrace, a lifetime without you.
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The Museum
04:34
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Strychnine, dancing queen only 17
Strip me of every ambition I’ve ever had
I am dumb, useless, lifeless slump of chum
So feed me amphetamines, codeine and phone screens
If there is a light on
It’s been snuffed out
If there is a light on
It’s been snuffed out
I walked across the park just to know you’re not there
And counted the colours in a gasoline rainbow
It is all fallen leaves and amber break lights
Reflecting all the colours of the night
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The crumbled palaces of my youth
Still stand tall, yet brick and mortar loose
We are all stuck mid page turn
One chapter ends and god I hope I’ve learned
So I scoured all the archives
I deciphered Rosetta Stone and I plagiarized
A more tortured soul than mine so I could feel my own
To realise, we all are born and die alone
But every time I looked in your eyes it was like a symphony
And I wondered if I stood here long enough I would be reclaimed by the sea
I was stuck in a symptomatic, self indulgence, some sweet reverie
But subtle as a warm winter's breath on my exposed neck
Oh please come back to me…
My Love.
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Alexander Carson London, UK
Alexander Carson is a neoclassical, downtempo, composer and songwriter based in the UK.
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